Wednesday, 17 April 2024 12:33

Being alone is the worst pain of them all

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It is hard for me to write this. I'm not well, I feel my life is ending, there is nothing left for me on this place, I'm alone all the time, everything hurts, nobody care about me anymore, nobody wants to talk to me, everybody hates me and the world wants to get rid of me. I feel more dead than alive. I can't publish anymore, because I feel not heard anymore, I feel I'm crazy to feel that I matter or that anybody cares anymore.
All my needs that I have are unmet and it hurts so bad. When you are starving, when you are without hope, the absolute worst, worse than anything is being excluded by the world, when you are so alone that every day is a nightmare. When everything turns grey and hurts!

I wrote many things that I never published, I laugh at myself at the ridiculousness of thinking anybody even reads what I write. But just in case anybody ready this, this is why I'm struggling to post anything anymore.
I'm so ready and horny for the fast fat pump up that I need a gavage pump! You might be familiar with foie gras, which is goose force feeding, using a gavage machine to blow fattening mush down into the stomach of the goose and pumping it up insanely, making the goose fat very quickly, with pressure.

I'm right now at a weight, at a fatness where I'm so ready and ripe to get filled by this gavage pump, with pork fat

They had pumped him in the fattening lab, his fat belly had grown, much more than ever before, he put on a ton of fat. He could tell they would pump him over and over again, to fatten him up extremely. Immobility was set as a firm goal.

He was in fattening trance when he gained, it was all he could think of, fattening up, gaining, becoming more! It hit him that he had to get away ASAP

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Wednesday, 19 April 2023 13:06

Deeper and deeper depression

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I can't write storys anymore, I have not had a feeding muse for many years and I can start stories, but they never finish and they never get published anymore.
I'm struggling with isolation and lonelyness, especially on Feabie no woman wants to talk to me. I assume it is age discrimination or something else, maybe I'm not handsome enough. I miss the time when I could live this out in real life and where people cared to talk to me and loved my hot feeding fantasies.
The lonelyness is fueling depression and destroying my creative spark to write fucked up hot feeding stories. My stories now lack all humanity, because I'm missing this in real life too.
I'm scared and worried that this was it, this was my life, that it will end soon. I have horrible nightmares every night reminding me how dead my life has become and that there is nobody in the world that cares about me anymore, not really, not in a real human sense. I have such big dream still, but being so alone is horrible, it saps all my energy. Having lost all my family is terrible, I'm a family person at heart, with nobody left in the world.
All I get right now are superficial interactions with people via messengers and in text, I miss people in person, real people that you can talk to.

Hoping for better times, when I can write again, where I'm around close friends again.


Saturday, 11 March 2023 08:29

Gaining as an example for you

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It's exciting that my own fattening up, the faster and faster it happens, helps others to gain too, seduces them into getting fat or knowing they are a feeder, they need to fatten up others. Yes, we are waiting for you, please help us gain, we fatten on purpose, we grow and pump up.

It is the hottest thing I ever heard after the accident with the pig fattening hormones, where she game me too much of them and what followed was rapid weight gain through force feeding. And consulting a weight gain specialst doctor, he said

Tuesday, 27 December 2022 07:14

Huge Funnel for Fat Apron

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I want to talk to feeders that want to make my fat apron grow and swell, give me a hanging belly, that is so hot. Look at this video,

Sunday, 20 November 2022 06:29

I can't stop eating and gaining

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I'm stuffing myself these days, I have a ravenous appetite. It is like I'm being hypnotized to pump up, I can't stop eating and I don't notice how much I have already eaten, but I need to gain and fatten up, fast. My belly needs to fatten up, I know this, I feel more and more like a fattening pig, I can feel how it is controling me and pushing me fatter and fatter, I don't have a choice if I want to gain or not, I must.

And there are feeders that only care about how much I gain, not about me as a human being, but how much fat I produce.

It turns me on gaining, it turns me on putting on fat and growing, the fattening and sex drive are directly connected. It feels like force feeding is coming and I have to prepare my fat gut so I can take the pressure and my belly not popping from too much.

Tuesday, 11 October 2022 08:05

The Hot Date with my Female Feeder

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When I started dating you, I hoped against hope that you were into feeding, but of course knew that the chances for a normalo to be into it was very slim.

But one thing that turned me on was that she kept looking down at my belly.
And so I could not stop myself from fattening up, every time we met, I was a little fatter, and she could not believe it, how that looked, how my belly was visibly getting fatter. A feeder watching how her feedee fattens up is the most exciting thing in the world.

And then she did something that sped it up even more: She insisted that we make a picture, because how huge I looked next to her.
And every time she took another selfie with me, I got fatter and she looked at these pictures, switched them in sequence, making me fatten up step by step with each picture and she pleasured herself to it and had amazing mindblowing orgasms. And everytime she she did, it made me desperate to overeat, I had to stuff myself and gain for her, my dream feeder, stuff myself and fatten up, because she wanted me extremely obese.
Female feeder's orgasms have this thing on male feedees that it makes them fatten up faster and faster.

I did not know she was doing it, but I got so horngry, stuffing myself with fattening stuff and being unable to stop. And it made me fatten up faster, at which point she couldn't believe her eyes how much I had fattened up in a short amount of time.

When I was in her presence, I got especially hungry and I wanted to stuff myself silly, I got horny from the pressure in my stomach, how my belly was inflating just like that.

She could not contain herself and when we hugged, her hand went to my belly fat and she moaned loud at what fat hanging gut she found there.
"Ohhh, you are growing so much fatter!" she exclaimed.


And then, without saying much, she just did what she knew she did best and I did what I knew I did best, I let her guide me to her car, by grabbing on my fat folds on the sides, and then driving me to an In and Out Burger and ordered 10 double double burgers with cheese and proceeded to stuff myself with them.
She animated my by slapping my fat belly and grabbing the fat and telling me that she wanted me to fatten up for her and dipped her hand into her dripping wet pussy and showed it to me and let me lick it off and swallow.

And that makes me even hornier and hungrier. We ended up in a hotel room, where I could hardly walk because I was so pumped up.
She then fed me with very thick cut bacon pieces, it was really fat pork belly, but I did not realize it, I could not think, I just had to swallow and gain and being fattened up. She played with herself in front of me, watched me wolf it down, watched me purposefully fatten myself up for her.

This porker fat was so fattening, any fat man had to be very careful, as such fat activated something really old in every super fat porker.
There was a moment when the fat porker in the village got too fat, was unhappy that he emptied every buffet and all the party food and decided that if he wanted to be insatiable, that is what he should get. And then they all started to feed him for weight gain, calling him a fat porker, teasing him with fat bacon to make him sit down and wolf down bacon, unable to stop, till he gut was huge and inflated and pumped up and it would not take long for him to fatten up from all that pork fat. So they pushed him to overeat, stretched this gut and fed him more and more like a real pig.

I swallowed greedily what she fed me, I could feel the need to gain in my gut. I was so horny that I wanted to have sex with her, but she held me back and told me to keep stuffing myself, while she masturbated in front of me, her pussy so wet. She kept feeding me with fat pieces of pork lard and I moaned as I swallowed it all and licked her finger when she presented them from her pussy. She noticed that the growing pressure inside my fat gut pushed my tongue out and I looked more and more like I needed to get some really powerful fattener to swallow, the pussy juice of an highly aroused female feeder that was fattening me up.

I reached the point when I felt I was about to explode in my belly, and my tongue was pushed out wide, my belly groaned and started to grow with fat.
I liked her passionated, my face was deep in her pussy, my tongue deep in her wet cave and I licked and swallow and it did not take long for my fat to start blowing up, it was like her hot pussy juice, saturated with wanting me to gain for her made my fat pump and inflate. And then she came, hard, and it sent a pump through my fat gut and ignited me fat pig and the pumping started, I started to swell with lard and expand.

Now I was fattening faster, my fat reservoirs started to inflate with fat. It showed what a fattening pig I was and I was gaining quite a lot faster after that, she loved force feeding me.

It was exactly the right thing to do with me fatty.


Monday, 12 September 2022 07:22

Fattening me up in the night

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I often have the feeling that I was fattened up in my dreams when I wake up, I can never remember, but is is fattening me up more and more. And I have wondered if they take me away while making me sleep and then fatten me up and

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