I'm sure you've been wondering why I'm not active anymore. I've been in a terrible depression for over a year that has completely paralyzed me. It's mainly financial, but also loneliness. At the moment I have arrived at the deepest point of my life and everything is extremely difficult for me, takes forever. I can't write any more stories because I don't have the peace and quiet and have extreme trouble posting them. To be honest I'm afraid of rejection, it feels like every person I've ever loved or every important person rejects me.
When I chat with a person, I automatically expect the contact to break because the person doesn't really want to talk to me.
This is probably self-protection so that I don't get disappointed and it's very important to me because I'm lonely and thoughts of feeding excite me and give me some relaxation as I get fatter and help.
Here this only as an explanation. I hope very much that I come out of this hole again and I feel better, I would like to write more exciting stories for you again, this is such a beautiful passion.
Depression BluesWritten by Rubens_Feeder
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Hi, I'm Rubens_Feeder and the creator of this website. I'm both a feeder and feedee.