Hello and welcome on Rubens_Feeders website.
On here you will find tons of articles and stories about feeding and fattening. I hope you will find all your questions answered and find even a few new questions.
From the style I write you will find that I talk direct and my language is often very sexual. If you are underage or if explicit sexual language offends you, please close the browser window now.
Here an audio introduction to the site from me, Rubens_Feeder:
I would in any case love to hear feedback from you, if I maybe helped you discover a part of you that you did not know.
Enjoy! And ready...set...get fat!
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Let me tell you a secret about me. I dream a dream that will pass as I fatten up and at the same time the dream will fatten me up.
I'm a bisexual feeder and feedee and I dream about a couple that is also bi sexual and both feeders. I would grow quite fast with them, as it would enable me being a fattening pig on many levels. This is something I want, I long for it.
So here it goes, let's start our story:
They both cornered me
I'm sure you've been wondering why I'm not active anymore. I've been in a terrible depression for over a year that has completely paralyzed me. It's mainly financial, but also loneliness. At the moment I have arrived at the deepest point of my life and everything is extremely difficult for me, takes forever. I can't write any more stories because I don't have the peace and quiet and have extreme trouble posting them. To be honest I'm afraid of rejection, it feels like every person I've ever loved or every important person rejects me.
When I chat with a person, I automatically expect the contact to break because the person doesn't really want to talk to me.
This is probably self-protection so that I don't get disappointed and it's very important to me because I'm lonely and thoughts of feeding excite me and give me some relaxation as I get fatter and help.
Here this only as an explanation. I hope very much that I come out of this hole again and I feel better, I would like to write more exciting stories for you again, this is such a beautiful passion.
I'm sorry for the interruption and the site being offline, but I'm currently fighting with a very deep depression. I'm currently homeless, have no income and am trying to find a job desperately, so far without success, which is also hard because I can't constantly smile like it is expected, which seems to be a requirement for finding a job. I lost the house that I was renting last year and additionally to it also my job. I'm currently in a crisis of being, where I'm asking myself, which function I do have in the feedism scene, if any, if I do have a mission, like I feel I do, or if I'm just deluding myself.
This is part also because I'm fighting with the superficiality of the online feedism scene, the coming and going of people, that pretty much everybody has no interest in deeper connections, which deeply frustrates me, because I'm looking for them, but currently have none. It is a little grotesque, even people that complain themselves, that others are superficial to them and cut off contact after a while, do the exactly same thing with me.
Last Christmas I suddenly got very sick and was in bed for 3 weeks, I checked my mailbox on any social network and found them empty, not a message, nothing, also on Feabie and I realized that I could have just died any well, nobody would have even noticed or...cared??? And that just made me angry and frustrated. I'm longing for these deeper connections that go forther than just feeding and to people that take feeding serious and stand by their preference for gaining and fat and don't constantly keep running away from it. I feel so very isolated in the world, being so advanced with my preference and love for fat and fattening and find nobody that I can share it with.
The English forum is online again, don't know why it was missing from the navigation menu. You will need to be registered to access it. Enjoy!
This is a direct link to it:
I did not know, but all people that followed the old Tumblr link did not see my blog, but only a request to login. It was always my idea to keep it public and do not require logging in, so here is the link that just works:
(and you can see everything without having to register or login)
Like many nights, I lay awake and hungry, dreaming about how I would gain and balloon up, how I soon would not be anything that anybody could be call thin anymore, but very fat and getting a sagging belly. The belly that I have gotten has primed
I'm currently restructuring the registration process, so please bear with me. Also, due to massive spam, I have to first approve new users, so it might take a few days for me to get to that. Please report any problems with the website to me, thanks!
I have been really really hungry these weeks and have been feeing isolated and frustrated about not being fed by a woman. I have not gained an ounce in over a year now. But a few weeks back, I felt the urge to gain so strong, that I couldn't stop feeding myself.
I want to have contact with you people from Africa that know that the old ways are the best ones, that a woman should be fattened up and gain and become wonderfully large and sexy.
I dream about opening a fattening house in Africa, for women that want to gain, that they can gain together and that they are helped, that they can gain healthily and exchange methods and knowhow how to speed up gaining.
One of the first ever BBW (big beautiful woman) that I ever met was very fat and taught me and showed me how sexy and wonderful black women became when they got really large and fat and that being fat and glorious must have been invented in Africa. I want to help you fatten up and expand, make you so much more beautiful, and womanly!
We are very likely going to have regular meetings and you don't want to miss these.
Unfortunately, I'm a little uninspired these days, I miss the real human contact to other feeders and feedees very much.There is currenty nothing going on in the area where I live. And I have become aware of how much energy I get through the interactions with you. But really real human contact, like when you talk on the phone or do a video chat, not just the same old e-mails and text chats that can be so annoynmous.
I feel that when I write a story now, it will come out all uninspired, bland and boring. That I'll totally miss the creative spark that makes them normally fly high. I'm just feeling low energy and downtrodden. Do you also feel that way?
Are there any people that would be up for connecting on a more personal level, maybe on the phone, skype or whatsapp?
I'm longing to fatten up a woman again, I have not had this in quite some time now and I miss it very much.